I Hate Myself and Want to Die
"I Hate Myself and Want to Die" | |
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Song by Nirvana | |
Released |
November 23, 1993 (The Beavis and Butt-head Experience) April 1994 (single) |
Format | CD |
A-side | "Pennyroyal Tea" |
Recorded | February 1993, at Pachyderm Studios, Cannon Falls, Minnesota |
Genre | Grunge |
Length | 2:42 |
Label | Geffen |
Writer(s) | Kurt Cobain |
Producer(s) | Steve Albini |
"I Hate Myself and Want to Die" is a song by the American rock band Nirvana, written by Kurt Cobain and recorded in February 1993.
History and recording
Cobain originally intended to call the band's third studio album I Hate Myself and I Want to Die,[1][2] but changed his mind, according to Tom Mallon of Rolling Stone, due to fear that the dark humor of the title would be lost on some critics and fans,[3] and after being convinced by Nirvana bassist Krist Novoselic that the band might end up with lawsuits if Cobain stuck with the original title;[4] Cobain changed the title to Verse Chorus Verse, then, two weeks later, to its final name, In Utero.
In January 1993, Nirvana recorded a demo of the song, produced by Craig Montgomery at BMG Ariola Ltda in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil; the band recorded a final version of the song with producer Steve Albini during the In Utero recording sessions at Pachyderm Studios in February 1993. On tape boxes, a fish symbol represented the song.[5]
Cobain did not include the song on In Utero, as, according to Cobain, there were too many "noise" songs on the album.[6] Geffen Records, the record label to which Nirvana signed, gave the band US$60,000 for the song,[7] and included the song on its The Beavis and Butt-head Experience compilation album,[8] released on November 23, 1993.[9] It is possible that the commercial single of "Pennyroyal Tea" was withdrawn after Kurt Cobain's death because "I Hate Myself and Want To Die" was the B-side, and it would seem like the record label was profiting from his death.[10] The "Pennyroyal Tea" single was however re-released in April 2014 as part of Record Store Day.[11]
Reception
In Take a Walk on the Dark Side: Rock and Roll Myths, Legends, and Curses, R. Gary Patterson compared the song to John Lennon's "Yer Blues" as "an attempt to explain [Cobain's] introspection."[12] In The Rough Guide to Nirvana, music journalist Gillian G. Gaar called the song an "upbeat, friendly thrash-along" with "nonsense lyrics" whose title lacked a connection with its music.[5]
Cobain, in an October 1993[13] interview with Rolling Stone writer David Fricke, stated he meant the song "[as literally] as a joke can be" and called the song's title "funny", as he stated he was "thought of as this pissy, complaining, freaked–out schizophrenic who wants to kill himself all the time."[14]
Covers
The Blackout released a parody of the song, titled "I Love Myself and I Want to Live," in 2009.[15] Baton Rouge sludge band Thou released a cover of this song on their EP "The Sacrifice".[16]
Recording and release history
Date recorded | Studio | Producer/recorder | Releases |
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January, 1993 | BMG Ariola Ltda, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil | Craig Montgomery | With the Lights Out (2004) |
February, 1993 | Pachyderm Studio | Steve Albini | The Beavis and Butt-head Experience (1993) Pennyroyal Tea (1994) In Utero (deluxe) (2013) |
Personnel
Nirvana
- Kurt Cobain – vocals, guitar, backing vocals
- Krist Novoselic – bass
- Dave Grohl – drums
Production personnel
- Steve Albini – producer, engineer
- Adam Kasper – engineer
- Bob Ludwig – mastering
References
- ↑ Cross 2002, p. 262
- ↑ Crosbie, Lynn (27 September 2011). "Twenty years after Nevermind, Cobain's candle still burns". The Globe and Mail. Retrieved 21 November 2012.
- ↑ Mallon, Tom (April 8, 2015). "No Apologies: All 102 Nirvana Songs Ranked". Rolling Stone. 44. "I Hate Myself and Want to Die".
- ↑ Cross 2002, 268
- 1 2 Gaar, Gillian G. (2009). The Rough Guide to Nirvana. Penguin. p. 194–195. ISBN 978-1-4053-8119-2.
- ↑ DeRogatis, Jim (2003). Milk It!: Collected Musings on the Alternative Music Explosion of the 90's. Da Capo. p. 6. ISBN 978-0-306-81271-2.
- ↑ Luerssen, John D. (2014). Nirvana FAQ: All That's Left to Know About the Most Important Band of the 1990s. Hal Leonard Corporation. p. 343. ISBN 978-1-61713-588-0.
- ↑ Pareles, Jon (April 11, 1994). "Critic's Notebook; Reflections on Cobain's Short Life". The New York Times. Retrieved 7 November 2013.
- ↑ Torreano, Bradley. The Beavis and Butt-Head Experience at AllMusic. Retrieved October 30, 2016.
- ↑ Pennyroyal 3 - Pennyroyal Tea single. crimson-ceremony.net. Retrieved on March 10, 2013.
- ↑ http://www.recordstoreday.co.uk/exclusive-products/2014/?p=10
- ↑ Patterson, R. Gary (2008). Take a Walk on the Dark Side: Rock and Roll Myths, Legends, and Curses. Simon and Schuster. p. 258. ISBN 978-1-4391-0364-7.
- ↑ Bentley, Tiffany (28 March 2012). "David Fricke of Rolling Stone magazine tells intimate rock stories during talk at Allentown Art Museum". lehighvalleylive.com. Retrieved 21 November 2012.
- ↑ Fricke, David (27 January 1994). "Kurt Cobain: The Rolling Stone Interview | Music News". Rolling Stone. p. 3. Retrieved 21 October 2012.
- ↑ Vikkeh (4 November 2009). "Daily Music Dose: The Blackout on Vikkeh~'s Blog - Buzznet". Vikkivendetta.buzznet.com. Retrieved 21 November 2012.
- ↑ Robotic Empire. "Thou - The Sacrifice EP".
Bibliography
Cross, Charles R. (2002). Heavier Than Heaven: The Biography of Kurt Cobain. Sceptre. ISBN 978-1-444-71389-3.